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I have now tried to sleep for almost two hours, and keep waking up because my back hurts. I also feel a bit nauseous and shaky.

I'd give a lot right now to have tomorrow's exam at noon rather than at 8 am.

I'd give a lot right now just to find a comfortable position I could lie down in.

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I have thrown up.

I have slept 15 minutes, and have to get up and go take that exam in 100 minutes.

This does not bode well.

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Sleep total is something like 30 minutes. I'm not too worried about that, I am more troubled by the fact that I am ravenously hungry yet still nauseous and even though I want to eat, I don't possess a single thing I want to eat.

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Well, it could have been worse.

I had my neighbor drive me to school, had a classmate (who incidentally broke down in tears due to stress after one of the tests) drive me home, and during the test itself I was mostly in too much pain to be stressed about other stuff :)

Even managed to get the nausea to pass, courtesy of minor amounts of bread. However, I was crouching on the ground and breathing heavily between test stations.

I think I did mostly okay, some minor potential cockups, didn't do as much as I wanted on a certain test that I knew I'd do poorly on, and my handwriting today was atrocious.

And I have called in sick to both school and work for tomorrow. I know I will not be up to sitting for 5 hours in either location, and my hisses and grimaces would scare the customers at work.

What.The.FUCK

So I'd suffered my way through the clinical exam with a modicum of dignity, and decided it was time to call the store I'd been to an interview at and ask when I'd hear from them.

4 hours later, the boss called.

The reason he hasn't called before is that the girls that work there(4 optometrists, 7 assistants) really wanted him to hire a guy. And that he'd been waiting to see if they'd change their minds. Now that I called, he asked them again, and they still want a guy. It doesn't matter that I am the only one that applied, that I am highly qualified for it, or that the boss seems to want to hire me (he was surprised when I said I'd gotten a strong impression they would hire me when I was there, though). The bitches are going to wait till August and see if some guy wants to work in a small west coast town. There aren't many male optometrists. There aren't many good male optometrists (guy or not, the boss doesn't want to hire someone incompetent). There aren't many optometrists who want to work in that area. What the FUCK is wrong with these people that they want to refuse me for lack of an Y chromosome???

A classmate suggested going to court to get the job. And I could, I'd have a VERY strong discrimination case here. But... I'm just floored at the arrogance. And although it'd be very hard, right now I am hoping I somehow manage to find a job somewhere I'd like just as well and that they end up being short staffed. After all, they can't be THAT desperate if they want to spend 3 extra months understaffed to see if they can find a guy they can hire instead of me!